Saturday, April 20, 2013

Bobbi isms



Hearts get broken, hearts heal
Life goes on, until it doesn't

I was not put here on this earth to have the life that you would want for me...
I was put here to have the life that He would want for me...

Cherish what you have while you have it.  Fate is a cruel trickster that steals things away you never thought you could lose.

Why the compelling need to heard?  Why is it important that things be equal, that things be fair?  When the dust settles and the day is done is it not better to just have said "today, I loved".

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

A NEW DAY A NEW BEGINNING

 A NEW DAY A NEW BEGINNING

 February 6, 2013
Yesterday marked my youngest son's 20th Birthday.  An  awesome milestone because he is an amazing young man, but also a milestone of another sort.  I have been over 300 pounds for 20 years.  This is jaw dropping and heart breaking to me.  I have given 20 years to an extremely unhealthy body.  That 20 years went in the blink of an eye for me.  The next 20 will probably go even faster.  I want to spend what is left of my life in a healthy body.  I have to choose this each and every day the same way I have been choosing not to smoke.  These life changes are not punishments or denials, these life changes are based on loving myself and the body that God blessed me with. 

AFFIRMATIONS AND COMMITMENTS
I will not beat myself up, I will love Bobbi and all that goes with her.  I will LOVE the journey.  I will experience new things like yoga and meditation.  I will come from a place of hope and encouragement for myself.  I will love myself AT LEAST as much as I LOVE OTHERS.  I will cook and eat healthy vibrant foods for my body.  I will move my body...slowly at first...gently, lovingly and I will progress and learn how to move with purpose and strength and speed.  I will work hard not to injure myself, thereby impeding my progress.  I will "stay the course".  Old fears and old lies that I have told myself about safety are no longer going to "control" my life.  I am safe in my skin, I can watch out for myself.  My family can watch out for me.  My husband loves me and will protect me.  I am a strong and capable woman and I can do this.
I cannot help others achieve this goal without going there first myself...
Today's weight is 329.6 and I love every square inch of ME!!!